Tuesday, October 2, 2012

White Fire-Proloque


It began with a wind from another world. A fury unlike any other kind of blizzard. It tore a hole in sky and screamed at the ice, forcing them together with an elemental charge. The eddy drew a death song out of the night and with it beat a storm all the way up to the clouds. The sea shook and the tablet of ice it supported broke in a random starburst of cracks.

And when all this had passed, what was left was a bear.

He was lying with his paws outstretched and straight, his snout pushed down between the hump of his knees. The wind at first refused to die. It ripped at his fur, making shallow angry waves across the curves of his back. It tugged again, and again and again, but on the fourth gust his great head rose in defiance and he breathed and held in the cold, sharp air. The wind grew tame in an instant and dropped. It fell to a whimper as he opened his eyes.

Lumbering slightly, he rose to his feet. The wind made apologetic circles around him. He ignored it and plunged ten claws into the ice. The auma of the North poured into his heart. With it came power and a terrifying knowledge, of a world disappearing too fast, too soon. He opened his jaws then and roared at the sky, until his voice became water droplets melting in the atmosphere. Snow fell on the crest of the planet.

This was the beginning.

And this would be the end.

But the Earth would not know it for another year yet.
 
-Gancanagh-

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

For every dark night,there's a brighter day

"For every dark night,there's a brighter day." My dad once told me this when I was little,when I was small and afraid of what hid in the shadows. How strange that I'm not afraid now. The fear of a six year old can sometimes seem so infinite,so endless. I think my dad meant that for every period of darkness and pain,of anger and misery,there is an even bright period of happiness and love,of strength and light.

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Waking Thoughts

Do you know what it's like to count your breaths,breathing them as you regret their very existence? What existence signifies purpose to your own being,a being that you hate? I plan,now and here,to end it. Just as many others do. These walls will be painted in my blood,and not a single tear shall be shed.

Monday, August 20, 2012

Fallen

I've fallen down
this deep dark well
and I can't get out
I call for help
as loud as I can
'Help can anybody hear me
please help me'.
But nobody comes
nobody can hear me
I'm trapped in this
void of darkness
alone
nobody's there to pull me out
nothing but dark walls
surround me
sitting upon this stone
with water surrounding me
cold and scared
filled with hopeless wishes
glistening from within
the waters surface
waiting, just waiting...      

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Questions

Do you know how it feels to be shrinking? Withering away into nothing more than a memory? You need to put one foot in front of the other, but running in place is all you can do. How do you overcome pain when it's something you breathe, a blast of hot exhaust in your face, something turned you must eat, or starve? How do you search for tomorrow when you're mired in an endless today?

Friday, April 6, 2012

Life Is

Dragged through the dirt
Ripped and torn is my shirt
A muddy,bloody mess
Try to kill me, use your best
I'm unlike the rest
 
Plowed over the rocks
In the ocean's sway
Confined to this box
I can only cough
A bloody spray
 
Life is
Trying to kill me
Always a test before me
If you could only see
I am living free
 
Countless attempts
Mutual contempt
But I can overcome
Where you're coming from
 
Silence my voice
Locks on my choice
Limitations, based on discrimination
Power in this defamation
Pain, a diluted sensation
Passion, based on aspiration
Dreams come and go
But what I know
Stoic, in my personality
The verdict, in it's finality
I was meant to be
 
Life is
Afraid of me

More

The more you give, the more you get
The more you laugh, the less you fret,
The more you do unselfishly
The more you get abundantly.
The more of everything you share,
The more you will always have to spare
The more you love,the more you'll find
The life is good, and friends are kind.
For only what we give away,
Enriches us from day to day..

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Suicidal Alphabet


A is for Assassin,cause you know it's gonna happen,don’t know where,don’t know why,but you wont have time to cry
B is for Brain cause I've got brain damage,I'm deranged,insane,got cerebrum like a cabbage
C is for Critical,it's what your condition will be in the new world order you are ruled by me
D is for Death because death is certain,even free houses sometimes have to close their curtains
E is for Earth turning from green and blue to gray,there will be no sunshine if I'm ruling the day
F is for Fate and I know this is my fault, but I can't help but lock my goodness in a vault
G is for Glory cause my fate will be gory if I do ka-kabang to leave behind my story
H is for Honesty and I'm not gonna hide it,the doc gave me some pills because my life is undecided
I is for Insanity and I learn to live with it,cause it's fun to know that I'm a danger to humanity
J is for Justice and for you none will come cause your winning chances are a billion to one
K is for Kill,another word for prey, that's what is buried on the hill in the old cemetary
L is for Lyrics,a song about you, your untimley death is isn't that big of a issue
M is for Massacre have fun with the experience,cause after I'm done you'll only see expiriments
N is for Notorious from England to Mauritius,Biggie Smalls, number one,it’s a shame he’s now fictitious
O is for Ominous the feeling still remains,even though all that's left is fragments of your brain
P is for Perilous like the situation,cause I'm going to start a zombie-like nation
Q is for Question and it keeps coming up but after I'm done this race's time will be up
R is for Relationships and mine are non-existent,cause my friends and the other,I like to keep them separate
S is for Solitude I live in isolation,building beats, cooking treats,making waves like radiation
T is for Trauma can't get better in rehab,cause it's so severe you'll be used as a lab rat
U is for Underestimating;what you do with my power and in my rein from the sky,fire will shower
V is for Vibes from the war drum's beating and off of it,the starving are feeding
W is for World and I'm not afraid of the people in charge cause them I will dominate
X is for X axis it's what the world spins on and when I'm done it'll spin the opposite direction
Y is for Yellow,the color of the sky as the fires are seen by many an eye
Z is for Zoo,it's where I belong cause my life is like a prison with the leaders lookin' on

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

You and Me

Who will I turn to now that your gone?
Who will comfort me when my day has been long?
Without you here, how will I get by?
All I can do is cry and cry

My friends are afraid of what I might do
They know I'd do anything to be with you
While in my mind that seems the best choice
I pray for guidance, then I hear your voice

We will be together at some point in time
For the love that we share is a love that binds
It will stand the test of the now and forever
To start again on new endeavors

Dry your tears, I hate to see you cry
Be brave and strong and you'll get by
You will get through this, just wait and see
Before you know it, it will again be you and me

Saturday, March 3, 2012

Fire and Ice

Fire and ice in nature, two extremes,
Like life and death it seems.

If emotion could kill,
Then life would be still.
Being caught in ardent desire,
Is being in hell that's all fire.
Many a destruction is caused by
Emotion, love, fire and desire.
Ice can destroy just like fire,
What is life if there is no love and desire?
There is a lot of destructive power in ice,
Being cold and aloof drains life of any spice.
If I had my way for the world to end in fire or ice,
It seems that ice would be the compromise.

Saturday, February 4, 2012

She Asked Why

How do I answer,
Why
How do I tell her why I like her so much,
How do I say because she’s prefect,
How do I say she completes me,
How do I say she makes me feel like I can do anything,
How do I say she has a smile that makes me melt,
How do I say her eyes has a sparkle that get me lost in them,
How do I say the sound of her voice is as sweet as an angel,
How do I say I’m more of a man when I’m with her than with out her,
How do I say she is special,
How do I say when I’m with her everything feel right,
How do I say when I’m with her I wish I could stop time and space just to have more time with her,
How do I say this to get her to understand that she the only one for me,
Hun how do I say all of this.

Rain,Rain Come Today

Rain, Rain
Come today,
Come wash the blood that stained my clothes.
Rain, Rain
Come today,
Come wash the tears that stained my face.
Rain, Rain
Come today,
Come wash all this pain that won’t go away.
Rain, Rain
Come today,
Come wash all of my scars away.
Rain, Rain
Come today,
Come wash all my memories away.
Rain, Rain,
Come in and play,
So maybe i can rest one day.
Because
Rain, Rain
Don’t go away,
No one sees me crying away.

Love

You entered my life like a smooth storm,
Planning to take its course into deeper depths,
I couldn’t stop.
The touch of you makes thousand watts charged within me,
Wish I could show you how I feel,
Your breath intoxicates me to have you,
The look in our eyes vapourises the very existence of me,
When I am with you, I see nothing other than you,
I just love being with you,
I want to live every moment with you,
Wish this moment of thinking of you doesn’t slip away.

Thirst

Dying to be with you,
Only you can bring life,
Into my thirsty soul,
Only you and you can,
Change my pain to heaven,
Hold my hand to,
Feel the love for you.

For You

For you I’d love with desire,
For you I’d climb much higher,
For you I’d love through this black fire,
For you I’d become the best fighter.
Fighter for your love is what I claim,
From the tip of your lips and how you say my name,
For you I’d give up every bit of fame,
For you I’d do anything, would you do the same.

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

I Love You & Goodbye

I will never forget you,
Though I may meet someone new,
But a part of my heart,
Will forever belong to you.
I know it won’t be easy,
And I’ll miss you every second,
But everything in life,
Comes with a special lesson.
Letting go is hard,
But when all the sadness clears,
There will not be a reason,
To shed another tear.
What we had was priceless,
And you will always hold my heart,
But now that our love is gone,
We must forever part.
My love you took for granted,
But I gave it anyway,
And still you overlook me,
Even to this day.
Of all the times you hurt me,
And all the times I’ve cried,
I think of why I worked so hard,
And why I even tried.
You said you’d love me forever,
But forever has come and gone,
And still I sit and wonder,
Where it all went wrong.
But now I see what’s really there,
And there’s nothing I could have done,
You can’t help who you love,
And I just wasn’t the one.
Maybe someday down the road,
Our paths will intertwine,
And once again I can hold you,
And know you are mine.
But until the day, if it even comes,
You will only be in my mind,
For now it’s time for me to see,
If it’s true love I can find.
We had some really good times,
And we had some really bad,
But the strength to keep on going,
Neither of us had.
I’m sorry our time has ended,
And we couldn’t make things work,
But then I think of all the times,
I acted like a jerk.
I know I wasn’t perfect,
But I gave you all I had,
And if we were so deep in love,
Why does it feel so bad?
I still have a lot of questions,
And I still wonder why,
But now all I can do is say,
I love you and goodbye

You Were My Heart

You brought me hope, when I had none,
I thought you were my destiny, I thought you were the one.
And I don’t understand why we couldn’t be,
You seemed so perfect, you were everything to me.
You gave me love, when I had little,
I opened my heart to you, it was so brittle.
Each day thats passed, I’ve shed a tear,
I’m lost in love, without you here,
You were my heart, you will forever be,
Beautiful memories that will stay forever with me,
That day its coming, and I’m scared to cry,
I know I’ll be thinking of you, and once again ask why?

Monday, January 30, 2012

I Am Alone

I’m sitting here alone,
Realising your gone,
I know I cant change things,
I know I was wrong.
They all say I don’t need you,
They all say I’m better off,
They don’t understand I love you,
Yet I never said it enough.
I regret what I did,
But I cant take it back,
Wish I could hold you,
I want you back.
I know you deserve better,
I know I’m messed up,
But cant go on without you,
I miss you so much.
Baby I’m sorry,
I know I said it before,
I mean it more than ever,
Knowing our loves now behind a closed door,
I didn’t realise what I had,
Till I lost you,
My heart bleeds inside,
I cant forget you.
Cant you find it in your heart to forgive me,
Love me once again,
Tell me everythings alright,
Tell me its not the end.
Yet I know the end is now,
I know you’ll never love me again,
I’m sorry baby,
That I was the one to let you down.

Missing You

When I hear your voice I still wait for you to say you love me,
Like you use to not so long ago,
When we talk I wish we could talk like we did not so long ago,
When you talk about him it reminds me of the way you use to talk about me not so long ago.
I miss you telling me that we will get through this,
I miss you saying you love me,
I miss your sweet words you use to tell me not so long ago,
I miss you being mine,
I miss you being able to make me laugh.
I miss your laughter,
I miss your love,
But most of all I miss you.

It Hurts

It hurts..
How do I let you know what I feel about you,
You will never know the way I think of you,
My day starts with the thought of you and ends dreaming of you,
It hurts..
You are the one who can make me happy,
You have the magic to bring life to me,
Just a look from you changes the world around me,
It hurts..
Wish I could tell you.

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Too Hard

It's so hard to write
When there is no inspiration
It's so hard to love
When I have no heart
It's so hard to breath
When there is no air
It's so hard to miss you
When you were never there.

Best Friend

You don't how bad I wanna tell you
It gets harder every day
I just wanna tell you I love you
And make the pain go away

I think of how we used to be
Thoughts start filling my head
I just want you to see everything I see
Every night before I go to bed.

I see your face and hear your laugh
I wanna hold you close to me
I wish you could feel the love I have
And know you are my hearts key

It's been awhile since I've seen you
My heart is filling the pain
All this love I wish you knew
Inside is driving me insane

I wish you knew there could be us
I wish you knew how I cry
I wish you knew that's its more than lust
That makes me wanna die

All these things I'll keep hidden
Even though they scream to be set free
This love I have is forbidden
I just wish that you could see

Thursday, January 5, 2012

How did this happen?

I tremble in darkness
Afraid of the unseen
Scared of what lurks in shadow.
I yearn to be free
Unbound from my chains
To run through field and medow.
Unable to move
From this place I am in
Will I ever be released?
My doubt and my pain
I hold deep inside me
Prevent me from finding peace.
Alone in the dark
Trapped forever
I wonder if here I will die.
Falling to the ground
I Clench both my fists
And reach them to an unseen sky.