The Only Way

a life of pain
and mistaken thoughts
a few sliced veins
a kid mistaught

a kid’s mistrust
his soul in tatters
to his wrist this razor was thrust
his dreams shattered

a life of lies
a kid misunderstood
his unheard cries
wanting nothing but to cause some good

sitting alone
thinking of his past
his past unknown
for this day will be his last

wanting only for the pain to be gone
suicide is the only way he knows how
so he knows this dawn
it will be over now

he grabs his blade
holds it to his wrist
his life betrayed
longing to feel its final kiss

he screams
blood starts to gush
it was just like in his dreams
such a rush

he smiles knowing
his pain is over now
his blood flowing
it was the only way he knew how

Some Things Never Change

chicken scratch rearrange and mismatch
keep my mind intact thru writers block pitch black
sumtimes its not so easy believe me
I got my head blocked like traffic in the inner city
Isn’t life peachy
Stop handing me lemons
With all this fruit I could put Stop n Shop out of business
Whats with this life aint fair so u get no forgiveness
Just witness stress chasin visions turned illusion and keep livin
Whats the incentive why am I driven to make dreams real with the problems im given
I guess it comes down to that fraction of a chance that its possible
That maybe my rhythmless dance might actually allow me to follow thru
So I may find a purpose and call it true
In the mean time I look like the dork from blues clues
as try to swallow omens spewed in a never ending quest for truth
and when it seems like time may bring me to a halt
I see it thru and somehow things r all renewed
All it takes is a small spark not a whole ball park giving me further ado
Im an individual meaning one no crew
I dunno if that’s whats best can I find a group and still bloom
Still find room no ridicule from you
Or you r you true
If not then I bid thee adieu
If so come forth and be introduced
I wont search for it I wont be the sleuth
I don’t have the two brimmed hat or magnifying glass trench coat to my shoes
Just ambition and a will not to lose
If I fall I crawl and find strength to move on
I may not stand tall but I wont be walked on
My soul is not gone so I walk on
I have a voice and I use it spread words like shells out a shotgun
Only unlike bullets my words don’t harm
They penetrate with the same power but for a case more strong
My words r for perseverance
and a will to keep going and know ur rights when things r wrong
and to be able to dodge oppressions sharp prongs
and the ability to unmask that which appears to be good and find within it its flaws
I speak of the ambition to keep marching with a cause
I speak of seeing it out till the end and only then I pause
I speak of not stoping self expression tho it may drop jaws
I say let those jaws drop and if u want our friendship to stop its ur loss
But id rather it not be that way Id rather keep friends and continue to gain
But its not up to me if u don’t feel the same
The world will never be perfect and people will always hate
We all must deal with pain and realize that some things don’t change

My Prison

They'll stay locked up
until I decide
to unlock the door
that keeps them inside.
I am the one that holds the key
and no one can get anything out of me.
Sometimes it opens and I peek outside
I slam it back shut, it is safer to hide
My feelings concealed within my private retreat
sealed up secure behind the concrete,
that covers my soul and keeps it safe from harm
Your words of kindness set off an alarm.
I suppress the urge to open my heart
to tear down these walls, rip them apart
But I can't anyway, I've created a cell
you can't get in
and I can't get out of this Hell.

Forsaken

I sit here alone,
Alone in my own desolate despair,
Abandoned by those supposed to love.

Dark clouds thunder overhead,
Coldness seeps through,
Deep into the very heart of me.

The world around me,
My supposed playground,
Now gatekeeper to my sacred cell.

Rejected I stand,
Unloved, unwanted, undesirable
By those who claim.

The Heavens tremble and heave,
Rain pounds down,
My soul weeps for more.

Locked into bondage,
Where there's no key,
Hope dares not supersede.

Amongst the filth,
Covered with the stench of life,
I lie forgotten.

The wailing wind roars,
Crying out in desperation,
As my soul slowly ebbs away.

Prisoner of life,
Product of hate,
I am the Forsaken.

Reach For The Stars

Climbing higher and higher
Reaching for the top
Every task you take
You end where you once began
Reaching for the next level
When you fall
Get right back up
Reach until you make it
Never give up
Practice makes perfect
Always reach for the stars!

Afraid

I'm afraid of this
I'm afraid of you
I'm afraid of what you would say

I'm scared to show you
I'm worried that you would hate me
I'm unsure what to do

I'm afraid of the past
I'm afraid of the future
I'm afraid for right now

I'm scared to go on
I'm worried that I'll be alone
I'm unsure who to tell

I'm afraid of the scars
I'm afraid of the pain
I'm afraid of the loneliness

I'm scared to sleep
I'm worried that you won't be here
I'm unsure of what's wrong

I'm afraid of the nightmares
I'm afraid of the darkness
I'm afraid of the light

Waiting

waiting in the dark moment
were time has stopped
wondering if the time will come

waiting to see you happy
were you are
wondering if its right

waiting for the day to come
were you will love
wondering if its true

waiting for you
waiting for you
my love

Without You

With eyes full of tears,
Heart overflowing with pain.
Never knew you would be gone,
I thought our love was here to remain.

With you leaving from in front of my eyes,
I told myself, it was all lies.
I knew you would come back again,
The dreams I saw, so human, yet insane.

As I walk back to my reclose,
My thoughts perturbed by that crushed rose.
As I pass by it, that laughter splashes,
From those buried hopes and dreams burnt to ashes.

We had set out to sail with that common dream,
Together with our love till the end of the stream.
The joys of past, so vulnerable and frail,
But alas! They left without a trail.

Wish there was a way I could show you my love,
Wish there was away to express my pain.
Wish there was a way to tell you how much I miss you
Wish I could saw how it feels, in midst of desert, to wait for rain.

The pages of yesteryears washed away by the stream,
Leaving behind a faultless dream.
An unpredictable breeze that turned to storm,
gulping the moonlight I went on & on...

The rain song and the dark blue sky,
the ride up the hill collecting my alibi.
Through darkness waiting for the break of dawn,
just to watch another day being born...

Redemption

begging for redemption,
his heart grows weaker,
time haunts his perception,
and his soul seems much bleaker.

His past follows him like the shadow of on heart,
Immortal as time and hits him like a dart.
He calls for redemption now to all of the world,
But none of them listened they all seemed to part.

His voice isn’t heard when he’s not in the wrong ,
His friends like the press sing his swan song .
So as he fights on to come into the light,
Their vision perceives him with a heart black as night.

The one that he wants can help him with this ,
Though he longs for a kiss through the dark she cant see,.
She wants to believe him but when others protest,
There bond grows much weaker, as if it’s a test

Alone

darkness overcomes life
my life has been taken over by darkness
while im all alone
by myself
with no one who understands me

i wonder is anyone out there
that feels what i feel
see what i see
see that they're alone
just like me

is there anyone
anyone that will be my friend
that will go through what i go through
that will be with me
that will help me

is there anyone
anyone that will help me
that understand me
how alone i am
are there any love out there

while i sit here alone
with no one by my side
i sit and wonder
will anyone ever understand
will i find such a person?

Comatose

Comatose to a universe that never called.

That always looked, but was unaware,

Of the pain I hold inside.

To them I lied, to me I died.

Ripples in the pool of humanity,

Disease spread, called insanity.

Takes over our mind, makes us sore.

Conflict starts the eternal war. Of happiness and strife,

Eternity and life,

Pain and shame,

An end to the game,

No more time,

Our last sign.....

Shattered Memories

Scared, as the world around me comes down.

Pieces, memories,

Lay around me, lifeless, with no meaning.

Shreds of my long forgotten life.

And there is the remainder of my past.

All is gone, all is shattered.

All but the mirror.

The mirror that holds the world I treasured so much.

But that too is disappearing,

Leaving me alone.

Alone, with my shattered memories.

Shattered Mirror

Cold as winter, strong as stone;

He faced the darkness all alone.

A silver god; a reflection.

A mirage; a recollection.

No return; no turning back.

The past is gone, the future, black.

Serpents gather in their nest,

As he stands above the rest.

Shadows hunt, he hunts the shadows.

The moon is risen and he stands below.

He views his world through the eyes of others.

Black and white, there are no colors,

As he looks down upon a shattered youth,

A shattered mirror shows a shattered truth.

Skin

Skin like ivory, perfect; a goddess she must be.

Slender fingers, unadorned; beautiful simplicity.

A single teardrop; when did it fall?

Could this goddess be mortal after all?

Shadowed Heart

Shadowed heart,

Shadowed soul.

Always a part,

Never whole.

Shadowed heart,

All alone.

Trusting slowly,

The pain has grown.

A showed heart,

Trusted once.

Now hurt and alone,

Hardened and cold.

A shadowed heart,

Loved once.

Now rejected and broken,

Hurt left unspoken.

A shadowed heart,

Struggles on.

And maybe one day,

The shadow will be gone.